Episodes

The Plastication was yesterday. Thanksgiving is tomorrow. I’m trying to delegate and avoid stress. The Plastication was yesterday Thanksgiving is tomorrow I’m trying to delegate and avoid stress

We ran out of Original Flavor. I made vaccine appointments for the kids. I’m putting together a CD marathon for the radio. We ran out of Original Flavor on hoppinhotsauce.com I made vaccine appointments for the kids I’m putting together a CD marathon for the radio

We celebrated Halloween with our friends and their kids. Some things had changed, but it’s not too bad. Plus, cheating guacamole. Everything changes, people get older Newsletter about a new episode New song: “Running for their lives”

A meeting with my doctor brings me new understanding. I am on immunosuppressants. I am more likely to catch Covid-19 even though I am vaccinated. I got a new primary care physician Got the flu shot Had a meeting with my doctor that convinced me that I am an immunosuppressed person Been playing “Hamilton” tunes on the piano Making dark, creepy music

I went to the radio station, to the independent living center and joined the gym. I’m beginning to advance. I went to the radio station, to the independent living center and joined the gym. I’m beginning to advance.

Everything is receding like the ocean after the wave has crashed and it’s pulling your feet. The gym, hot sauce, supply chain- things are in recession. Everything is receding like the ocean after the wave has crashed and it’s pulling your feet. The gym, hot sauce, supply chain- things are in recession.

I moved past my fear of driving by breaking it down into small steps and listening to my inner Phil Jackson. I moved past my fear of driving by breaking it down into small steps and listening to my inner Phil Jackson.

I miss having barbecues and I’ve got to get over it. Cat meowing in the middle of the night. Children are like lice. BEGIN TRANSCRIPT JOHN HOPPIN: Check check check. Check Czeckoslovakian. What’s The Matter With Me? This one is about barbecuing, but first: I woke up in the middle of the last night. And when my cat is meowing at the door in the middle of the night, I’m like that makes sense for a cat. Stupid cat! Shoutout to all the cult members, and all the people who are on the fence too. All...

Hearing the sound of missing teeth. Night driving. Hanging out at Cato’s Ale House felt like a win. Notes i went to the dentist he gave me false teeth to wear until they start implanting things theyre aesthetically convincing, theyre uncomfortable cant really eat with them, and eating is the purpose of life.. so i question their appropriateness can’t drink wine with them – taste/tongue movement i went to catos ale house i drove there at night, it’s just 15 minutes up 580 .. it was scary i got...

The joke book wraps up with a bang. Another cult episode!

My teeth are knocked out, Val Kilmer’s new film “Val”, Representing the disabled body

We’re going on a family vacation and it’s something to be proud of. It’s an accessible vacation- all the attractions have paved paths. We’re staying at a place with a pool and AC. I’m cauitiously optimistic. PLUS, Cult episode! What if this was a religious or cult podcast? Check out this episode to see how it would be.

In this episode, Where’s your head at? I need to record my activity as an Amazon seller in Quickbooks. It’s creating stress. I ran into a lady at the gym and forgot her name. Her name rhymed with her husband’s and was ambiguously gendered. Listen to the episode to hear how it all went down. BEGIN TRANSCRIPT JOHN HOPPIN: Where’s your head at? It’s here. Hey where’s your head at? It’s here. On my, on my neck. On top of my neck. In some ways in retrospect it seems so simple to write a massive...

Talking about putting myself out there. I realized I always put myself out there. I mean, you’re listening to it… Goes along with one of my biggest fears… losing the ability to express myself. I was on the radio yesterday morning and it got me thinkin’. I’ve always put myself out there- ever since I was a teenager and probably before that. Just to have something to belong to. We go over a timeline of examples. I’m getting more disabled and things are getting harder for me. My biggest fear is b...

Thank you for tuning in to the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast In thise episode, “On The Zon,” we discuss: The barbecue works The sauce is on Amazon I fell at the gym What is Jeff Bezos’ phone number?

My first workouts since coronavirus are a mixed bag. Just got to put my head down- probably everybody feels the same way. Shout outs to Nami Rocky came over and we had veal ossobuco and saffron risotto

At the Cobbler Working on my brace. PLUS: summer camp, driving, Flip A Coin Day Koko’s At Camp Koko’s finally at Summer Camp. The frustration of being a disabled father during Covid-19 was intense. I have two hands but one isn’t very useful, leg is the same, so doing projects with either kid has been difficult. It feels like we’re about to turn a corner. Getting My Confidence Back I have been trying to get back the ability to drive again. I’ve been driving little drives every day. But yeste...

Going outside of my comfort zone Crossing Boundaries Going outside my comfort zone In this episode of the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, “Crossing Boundaries,” I’m going outside my comfort zone. I printed the Amazon shipping label- I’m going to try selling some Hoppin Hot Sauce on Amazon, to tie my product to a strand of hair on the giant beast that is Amazon. I submitted my poetry to a poetry journal for the first time since high school. Some friends came over and I cooked the right amo...

Cooking While Disabled Dinner on a Wednesday night Dinner on a Wednesday night Cooking Yotam Ottolenghi’s Confit Leeks With Lentils, Lemon and Cream, something I would’ve enjoyed causes me to re-evaluate the way I cook. In this episode, I read two consecutive entries in the “What I had for dinner last night,” journal. The first is from the night I made the leeks, and the next comes from the following day, after having cooked a more successful meal and having a discussion with my therapist. “...

Oscars movie review. PLUS obscenity, ancient dramaturgy, jottings & more.. In this episode, responding to 2021 Academy Awards best documentary nominee, “Crip Camp.” PLUS: Obscenity, Ancient Dramaturgy, Jottings & more.. Poet Michael McClure makes an appearance. In the Jotting notebook, the power of autosuggestion.

Welcome to the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, “Paratransit Certified” I’m Certified. PLUS Shout Outs, Jottings & More.. In this episode, I get certified for East Bay Paratransit. I’m fully vaccinated, and I’m ready to go back to the gym and the radio station after more than a year off due to Covid-19. Paratransit will help me get there. Shout outs to my art teacher, who steps in and gives me a little validation. I read some things I wrote down.

I got a letter from a psychiatrist In this episode of What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, I receive a message from a psychiatrist who identifies some of the hurtful things my son was saying a couple episodes ago in Won’t Be Ashamed as relating to the Oedipus Complex. She thinks maybe he’s having Oedipal thoughts as he begins to identify with me, and that makes a lot of sense. She wanted to know what comics I buy my son- it’s The Comic Garage’s Super Box. He just got a new one yesterday, and he ...

In this episode, we got vaccinated for Covid-19 at the Oakland Coliseum after hearing VP Harris had gotten involved there. The kids went with us, we drove up, it was easy, and when it was over it was a big relief. Plus, What I Had For Dinner Last Night and more.

Spring Vacation Is A Hoax Or At Least Seems That Way In this episode, it’s spring break and the concept of family vacation appears warped and unrecognizable after a year of pandemic. spring vacation is a hoax, at least it feels that way I haven’t got the coronavirus vaccine yet, but I will I keep a journal about, “What I had for dinner last night…” We’re getting ready for grilling season